Oh I love. I love love love. my heart just wants to love. my whole life wants to love. just right now. what a mystery that I was born for that. that all I do is look for that, want that, want to give that. and what another mystery that it is here – oh what a trick that no one understands… it makes me laugh and laugh for some reason. no one would understand this… “none of my business”, whether it is understood or not, Gangaji says.
I like that.
The Peace Filled Sanctuary is in your heart, right now.
Sitting silently last night with others, I was filled with the peace that requires nothing. Mind gratefully surrendering its inflammation and worry to the source of itself - illuminated stillness. Emotional body came home to the Heart and deep fulfillment was revealed, bringing quiet joy. This simple act of Stopping All Doing is the most radical act of my lifetime. I encourage one and all, with my life, to take up the practice of the Samurai with no Sword and surrender to living silence that cuts through ego, cuts through distraction, and points immaculately to that which is Present in All. The reward is natural integrity from which one can live in peace and harmony. And it spreads... May Love Rule on Earth. Peace Peace Peace - I am that. I am Peace itself; Freedom Itself; Love alive, living my life right now.
I go forward without moving, I stand Still and see. I respond like a Samurai whose Sword is Stillness.
LOVE will lead this life.
My love is uncontained.
It is full and flowing,
my heart a vast ocean
teeming with life
and penetrating silence.
I am breathless.
My world is crushed
it is scathingly
Thought is transparent,
Yet I live.
I live in all.
My life is not mine
my body belongs to soil.
I live within emptiness
manifesting as love.
This is virtue.
I love you.
I love the world.
I am a child of this.
I want you to know I have been moved by you; I have deepened, I have become more aware. When I meet you I discover myself and it is the expression of Life Itself moving through your form, my own self alight in you that I discover anew.
I feel deep and living love thriving in my heart, breathing out, beautiful in the world like a thousand robins floating in the muted winter sky this morning, all singing, filling the air with sublime music. Life is a miracle playing itself out each moment of the day in our bodies. This living organism that Earth is, our breath and bones, the ancient water of the land, the sky, the sea, our breath. Yes. I am renewed today as I pause a moment to reflect. This extraordinary natural world that we inhabit is truly a miracle.
And our capacity for expression and compassion, to expand and include... there is such an awakening in the human mind as the darkest ignorance and horrors are exposed; we are all moved.
As I open to confront what has been ignored deep in my own psyche, I witness the reflection of this in the world at large and it is painful but I am willing and I am paying attention and the changes come. There will be more. It doesn't feel comfortable or peaceful at all. It is deeply disturbing inside and out but this is the time of the great unveiling - Right Now.
I have become a disciple of Self Inquiry and there are many who are choosing to stop and rest in silence now.
This is where True Abiding Peace is to be found, as even the most sublime beauty experienced through the senses is fleeting. What satisfaction the mind may find is temporary as it picks up the next thought and it is tenacious, it is restless, it wants to "find out"! The importance that has been placed on thinking has obscured the deeper currents of existence and our personal worlds have become limited to reacting. Many have fallen into trance.
Stopping for a moment to be still, there is true rest. Identification is cut and deep peace is discovered, like a vein of gold in the darkest hardest stone. This is who you are. Bright and pure and unbound.
This rest is pure Manna - nourishment that is unfettered by outcome or past experience. There is great potential in the willingness to stop. It is the willingness to cut out the root of suffering, the willingness to end the story of the past or the future. It is the willingness to be free, just as you are. The Truth is revealed and the mind is healed of its addictions. Yes. The search is over.
This has been my experience. This is the birthright of humanity and it is time, Now.
to Love I am true.
True to myself
rooted in quiet, the essential ingredient.
Quiet. A time to pay attention.
A time I choose, now.
And as I sit down with myself, a little candle lit by Her picture
all the thoughts seem so small
and the quiet is so big.
I fall in love
and that's what trust is...
falling in love entirely.
In our thoughts, we are alone. All that is perceived is but thought and therefore transitory. This is proven each second, as phenomena come and go ceaselessly. What is unmoving? What is unchanging? In surrender to This which is only Here, there is no one to be alone and thought is but a twinkle on the ocean of being... One cannot be separate from oneself.
I have just come from Amsterdam with Eli where he asked me to offer sessions in support of students who came to participate in his 5 day Introduction to the Enneagram of Character Fixation retreat. The Enneagram is such a powerful tool to see and it is best used for seeing ones own fixated responses. This kind of seeing is essential - before this there will be projection onto the other. It is a simple fact that the mind will do this so there must be a burning desire to know the truth of oneself. This desire will carry one into the depths of identification and through to the "other side", to the simple recognition of all that one is, Here. Gangaji has said, "...the truth is so simple it is overlooked" and I find this to be true. For those that have already given their lives to this, the sessions are over in a matter of minutes. I simply guided the person to examine what was arising in that moment. In the willingness to give ones attention to it, what ever was arising was seen to be the truth itself, revealing itself through the fixated behavior. Discovering this was so blissful, and we often found ourselves laughing tears out of our eyes as the holographic miracle of life was revealed instantly.
By simply giving ones attention carefully to what is arising in the moment, the truth is revealed; life is revealed. It is truly so simple it can hardly be stated. But the commitment must be to be true. Not just a commitment, but devotion. Devotion comes out of falling in love. When one discovers the simplicity and ease of being - the fulfillment that is ones very life, it is natural to fall in love! This is what we are! This is what our lives are expressing, naturally!!!
The Enneagram is a tool for self inquiry - a way to unveil the habits of mind, body and emotion that come from a lifetime of identification as a somebody. It is a way to hone ones attention powerfully so that one may become more aware of ones own suffering and the suffering we cause. It opens one to clarity and wisdom in the space that would otherwise have been occupied with habitual coping strategies that run subconsciously. It has been an essential and powerful tool in my life.
What I noticed in those who's minds were wrapped up in self judgement and addicted to doubt and drama, was that the sessions were lengthy and complicated as we navigated through the maze of thought only to find that the commitment was missing. When it came to "putting your stake in the ground and not moving" (as Eli has said) there was hesitation, "what if...??" "How will I...??" The imaginary future took precedent. How is it that some are willing and some are not?
There are three things that come to mind: Grace, disillusionment, and receptivity. Without grace, none of this is even remotely possible. Grace is the power that will bring disillusionment to a life of mediocrity. How many of us are living our lives in a trance, fixated on T.V. or our day to day dramas, or the future, or the past... giving our attention away away away and with it our lives carelessly spent and then finished? Disillusionment is a Holy Sacrament, it is the necessary element which goads the ego to the search for something better. It is the beginning of awakening to the truth of ones nature.
A teacher is the answer in form to the disillusioned minds prayer for help. This is living grace, and to be open, to be receptive... to surrender to this grace... this is a blessed life given to love. This is a life of fulfillment that is present now, as ones own life. Who knows how it will unfold? It is a life that is given to the truth. This is my experience every day - deep contentment, not contentment that is sleepy or that comes from some sort of happiness with my circumstances. This is contentment that abides in that which does not come and go. It is natural and simple. It is radical too, for it requires total surrender. It is, already, who you are, whether you are conscious of it or not. The word that comes to me now is, "Yes". Say yes, say yes with your entire being and be held in That which has no name. Revel in the glory of this and discover deep abiding love that has it's source in you. You are that which is free. Give yourself to it. Let Love consume you and even that which you have avoided will be used for Love's divine purpose - your life.
We are so blessed that we have been given the opportunity to ask and to discover what it is we want for our lives in the deepest sense. In this discovery there is the opportunity to give your life to that with impeccability. Freedom, Love, Peace are your true nature irrevocably. The tendancy of the mind is to look for that in circumstances. Circumstances will not give lasting fulfillment; though they may line up in a way to bring great happiness, it is a trick of the mind to believe that this is the source of the happiness. In the willingness to give your attention to what is unchanging, the source of deep, abiding peace is found living inside your own life. You are this source. You are free to choose it. Be impeccable. Support is in every aspect of your life, and it becomes evident in this choosing. Consciously make every breath be "Yes." to the Living Truth of yourself. Your life will reveal it to you - through every aspect. Turn your attention to this now.
Gangaji is on my mind.
Life is on my mind.
Love is on my mind.
The Living Soil is on my mind.
My Heart can hardly take it.
It's time to LIVE THIS
to live what we already belong to
what is OURS
It is LOVE, it is powerful...
this word must again have POWER
The power of truth.
To TAKE BACK OUR POWER
by paying attention
by discovering stillness... not stillness like we imagine.
Find out. Right now.
Is in love with what is true and good and real and her life is given to that.